I wonder are people betraying or back stabbing me now a days. have I ever been so bad till the extent that people be with me just because they pity me. have I ever done or said anything that might have put people in the place of hell? feeling the blood boil in them and the feeling to just torture me right at that moment?


Come to think of it. maybe I was that bad. maybe I did something which is so unforgivable. maybe. but why?
Was I always this kind of person?


they were once my companions.
they were all that mattered.
they were once my cherished friends.
then my world was shattered.

wishing they were somehow here again.
with me.
wishing they were still by my side.

I'm trying to be forgiven.
please teach me to live.
give me all the strength so I could try.

no more memories.
no more silent tears.
no more gazing across those meaningless years.


I suddenly had this song played in my mind after I saw something. and this hit me. I hate my emo shit thing. f*** this man. maybe my mood swings are here. fagging hormones.