Sometimes...

I wonder...
If I really wanted it so badly.
If I really wanted it for my sake.
Or just for the sake of keeping up with the trend..so called.


I'm feeling guilty. very.
I only trust my brother the best.
And hope all people will understand if anything goes wrong.


I don't wanna hurt anyone any more.
Perhaps. I've done too much.
And that's what I hate.


I used to think I was the best.
That everyone would hang around me.
But I'm not the one.


I still get jealous over tiny things.
This evil side of me just won't go away.
And is slowly concurring.


This is what I feel at the moment. what I think I should say.
All these are honest thoughts. I can't keep it in.
Sorry for the emo-ness :(